It's ok to not be ok.I repeat.It's ok to not be ok.It's what you do with not being ok that makes a difference.The past weekend/week I have not been ok. There have been growing pains and struggles at work. I went with a friend to have her dog put down. There are personal struggles with … Continue reading It’s ok to not be ok. Also, self talk.
Oh Hey Pandemic
First off, it's been quiet on here. I've been writing a lot on the side, things you don't see, because, well, there's a lot going on behind the scenes, but that's for a different post. Now we're in a pandemic. And somehow watching my house burning down nearly 3 years ago prepared me a little … Continue reading Oh Hey Pandemic
Beep Boop Beep, Just One Door = Progress
I am a doer, a strategizer. When I’m presented with a problem my brain goes in to this weird computing mode. If it was a 1970s SyFy show there would be little lights blinking and beep, boop, beep sounds going off all while a motorized, monotone voice repeatedly said “computing”. Then the plan of action … Continue reading Beep Boop Beep, Just One Door = Progress
Our Current State, Plus A Few More Fire Engines
I’ve been writing this in my head for weeks. There’s actually a file called “writing” on my computer that's well over 2,000 words, were I’ve started it several times. Each time is different. Sometimes the writing is fueled by anger, sometimes despair, sometimes exhaustion. It’s taken several weeks, but this is the first time I’ve … Continue reading Our Current State, Plus A Few More Fire Engines
Dear Yoga, I’m Sorry by Chris
This weekend will mark the anniversary of our house fire, truly a life event that propelled us onto a completely different course and altered the timeline of our lives. I haven’t written in a long while. Harvey happened and my entire city felt like I had been feeling for 8 months, lost and sad and … Continue reading Dear Yoga, I’m Sorry by Chris
Dear California, There is Hope by Chris
One thing I learned in therapy during the last 8 months is when there is tragedy, no matter the cause, the emotional response is always the same. During Harvey I knew how the victims felt, not because our house flooded, but because I know what it feels like to loose everything suddenly. I know what … Continue reading Dear California, There is Hope by Chris
A Photography Project From My Heart by Chris
Before the fire I wasn't sure I'd be continuing with photography in the same scope I had done in the past. My heart wasn't there. It had become work. I was frustrated and tired. As I dug through the rubble of my home, I entered what was left of my office and searched for my … Continue reading A Photography Project From My Heart by Chris
When Panic Attacks by Chris
I thought I was done with panic attacks. It really has been months since I last had one. If I think on them hard enough I can still feel the remnants of the feelings, they linger in my mind and in my heart. After a very full day of volunteering I received the following email. … Continue reading When Panic Attacks by Chris
Houston Strong, Texas Proud by Chris
We spent five days sitting in our house waiting for tragedy. Honestly after you experience tragedy, there’s a part of you that’s always expecting it again. I watched people get off boats both in person and on TV and while most of them are smiling, there is an instant where there is a blank stare. It’s … Continue reading Houston Strong, Texas Proud by Chris
Oh, Hey Hurricane Harvey
Bill and I had a big weekend planned this weekend exploring areas of our state we had never seen. We were going to spend Friday going to see the George W Bush Presidential Library and then spend the evening with friends in Bryan, TX. Saturday morning we were heading to Waco to see the mammoth … Continue reading Oh, Hey Hurricane Harvey